I have been suffering from angst recently. The future goal I have been striving for is so far removed from me that it seems impossible to achieve. When in anxiety, I always resort to the Internet. It provides me with a variety of distractions which keep my attention away from the anxiety. This feeling of relief leads me to the thought that it would be better to keep on living this way than to try to attain the goal with a premonition of failure. But I think I may say I am old enough now to know that it won't do any good in the long run. I have to try living. After all, as Kierkegaard says, "Life can only be understood backwards, but must be lived forwards." Face the anxiety and respect every moment. This will be my motto for the time being.