I feel it necessary for me to change myself. But there are two problems about it. One is that I don’t have any ideals. Much as I want to change myself, I don’t know what my new self should look like. It is maybe because there is no philosopher around me who fills me with awe and because I don’t feel respect for those who I cannot meet in person. The other is that I am forgetful. Even now, I don’t remember what I was thinking as the second one when I said that there were two problems. All I remeber is that it is not my forgetfulness.